You hurt me

exams

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

just now was physics. i could rmbr everything except for work done.

shit ah. supposed to be suming, but i put sumting else. and i know i flunk my hist. i went TOTALLY out of point. HAHA.

many thinks it's due to the lack of sleep, really.

but oh well, i have been sleeping very late. what to do..

tomorrow is POA and F&N. HAHA i can score on POA if its NOT about DEPRECIATION AND DISPOSAL!!!!

gah gah gah. nvm, TPL full marks, confrm pass. i think.

baaaaaabi. then F&N. can i just curl up and die? like really.

everything has been shit lately. I MEAN IT. cam shit jek. HAHA.

sch was normal ah tadik. i panicked during PHY sumhow though i noe the answer. after school, ate w rogue,nina,sha n yan kjap. YAN is deeyan eh. then halfway,i couldnt take it. penat giler babi thn i was like panting. rogue tot my asthma came back. i was tinking "oh fcuk no"

i hate asthma, the attacks damn blardy irritating. thn went to POA. talked to Lena awhile after and did the noticeboard. went home after i rmbered i was supposed to be home and ready by 6. IT WAS ALREADY 5.15PM. hahahahahaha i siaped for an hour tau everytym.

then rushed home, took the bus with Iylia and luffed at Aizat while aizat cycled home. rushed home and ran in the rain bcoz i couldnt b bothered going one whole round. then reached home, penat giler, muker pucat, siaped and ran out w a moody family bcoz they had to wait for me. westcoast makan, home, study, no sleeping.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabi.

i hate common tests. BUT. haha. it makes me study more often. so its ok.

b said i am weak now. he told me i used to be strong in face of all obstacles bih now im not. HAHA.

i miss him.

and oh, happy 21st kakak.

Labels: asthma, baby, common test, FnN, lena, POA, shits, weak

Withlove,

11:17 PM

taking back

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

fcuk ah, i want to take back my hour ago post.

really.

i went to her blog and realised, fcuk siak regret siak mcm ginik.

and guess wad, I CANT TAKE BACK MY WORDS. n i dun feel like i ought to.

but nvm.

i shall try to not care.

i shall try to be patient.

fcuk ok aku nangis lagik ok fuck ok aku benci ah org buat aku nangis fuck ok sumer org fuck ah aku benci ah fuck lah eh g mampos lah korang suker buat aku nangis fuck ah babi ah gi mampos ah fuck u ah fuck aku tak perna ckp org binatang ok fuck ok fuck ah nabeh fuck ah

Labels: fuck u

Withlove,

8:13 PM

atrociousity

i've wondered.

why does some things hurt and some things doesn't?

why does some things hurt more than others?

and haha. yeah i found out the answer.

because we care. too much until the pain gets pretty much heartbreaking.
and there is always a saying, "it is easier to forgive an enemy than a friend"
because you see, a friend is not supposed to hurt, backstab, lie,cheat or do shameless things to you.
"makan kawan" lah maknernyer...

but when it happens, especially when a friend does it, the pain..really... the word forgive doesnt even come to mind, at all. even after days, and only when things jolt u, then it changes ur mind.
so far, nothing has changed my mind as of yet. but im tired. of fightitng. because it is dragging everyone else i care about in. and i want it to stop. i'm screwed up enough with my common test as it is. so fine. if i have to go to a restaurant and order a humble pie instead of a crow, then i will.

because it doesn't affect me ONLY. n i do not want to go on,being a selfish bitch. things have to end ok?

and guess wad.

aku tngah tanggung malu nie skg. my turn laa eh kirekan?

tanggung malu cakap aku salah, tanggung malu pasal its published in the net, in which everybody and anybody will see, in which i know i have to do this because we are waaaaay beyond words.

but i don't know. i just hve to go on wondering whether it will repeat itself again and again despite several attempts. at everything. so tt you will chnge.
but as i said, maybe its too much. and i have to accept u for hu u r. because, u r u, ina way or another. maybe u didnt mean to cause that much pain. but im telling u, it hurts. and thats the way i react to things because i need time to be alone n think n FIND IT IN MYSELF to forgive and forget as sha says. but watever.

i cant do anything.

and for the record? i didnt expect u to kiss me and cry and say sorry.. and i hope u dun expect me to do it when i accept ur apology because its plain atrocious.. and guess wad? i already did accept ur apology in the nod. but u dun see it that way right?

Labels: accepting, atrocious, forget, forgive, friends, hu u r

Withlove,

7:13 PM

omg

Monday, February 26, 2007

MATHS AND SS.

HORRIBLE.
NOTHING ELSE TO DESCRIBE IT.
IT WAS PURE HORRIFYING CRAP THAT I PRODUCED.

AND I SCREWED UP MY ENGLISH TOO!!

OMGOMGOMG!!

soooooooooooo. i was trying reaaaaal hard to like remain upbeat but babi ah.
impossible siak.

slept late giler babi smlm,yawning my head off now.

had SS then lessons thn Maths test. fuk. ii confident in graph n my locus jek siak. haha pathetic i noe. then was afta school. nina drama siak in sch today. thn thn searched for iylia n harith, psl they supposed to help me with my chem n hist. rogue was there thn we went to canteen to start. skjap jek kener cabot gi dpan library.

HAHA kekek. we had to run from him kaaaan? sampai patah balek bnyk kalik siak.

thn asked our old phy tcher for help. so he taught me, rogue, harith n rahmat. iylia was in class. then he dah blah, friz n iylia came. hurriedly did our work n packup to fetch Harith's adik. fcuking cute lah the kid. BUKAN MACAM HARITH. chet.

thn I CRIED. hahahahahahahahahhahahah. kekek siak.
iylia dah "eh shab kau ok tak nii... betol2 laaa ok tk nie....."

thn rahmat n iylia salah paham. haha then sorted it out n now im happy.

MY HEAD ALMOST FELL OFF SIAK. I JUST YAWNED SO WIDELY.

fcuking techno kakak is listening to makes my eardrums go OWWWW

Labels: cried, screwed up, yawning

Withlove,

8:44 PM

BILL AKU NAAAAAIK~

Sunday, February 25, 2007

trust me when i say this.

i'm gng to switch off my hp during the day n switch it on at night ONLY.
msgs replied at night or none at all if its stupid,ridiculous or i simply cnt be bothered.

my bill went up.

and i HAVE to keep it down else you will be contacted via the phone,
"hello shabrina dah meninggal. kau nak tngok2??" by a fren.

fcuk ah....

ok dah no more hp. nooooooo more.

fcuking common week became a god bless.

bcoz it means im too busy for hps.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MSGS.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ASKING ME TO CALL.

CALL ME CAN THOUGH.
MSG ME CAN THOUGH.

please please understand. i'm not the one paying for my bills.

Labels: bill, calls, common test, hp, msgs

Withlove,

9:51 PM

oh so random

ok i was wondering,

slalu hujan, i slalu tido and cannot wake up. so now knaper i cannot sleep and tak feel sleepy langsong?

and i wondered abt it since 4. or was it 3?

and i JUST found out the answer.

I ATE A COFFEE CHIFFON CAKE.

cannot sleep.

duh.

so now im stuck, doing SS since dari tadi psl the chpt is soooo long.

even though i committed it to memory, notes are a great help. really.

Baby is working, no wonder my hp is silent. haha.
i miss him, loads.
i hate common test week.

BENCI AKU, SEBER AKU.....

lets listen to dangdut shall we

Labels: baby, coffee chiffon cake, common interest, random, SS

Withlove,

5:50 PM

whore

you are a whore.

MY WHORE to be exact.

saaaaaaaaaaayang rogue.

hahaha.

i cnt seem to concentrate.

shits are going thru my head.

everything must stop, like really.

stop giving me shit lah eh.

oh bytheway,read my blog. bcoz u can.
i cant read urs.

HAHA.

nvm our perogatives, our choice.

im merely the nicer half.

and i realise, i have a picture. in which if i were as tall as my boyfriend, we would be symmetrical opposites.

really.

oxymoron again but whatever.

SYMMETRICAL OPPOSITES!!

nice nice. my new blog url maybe?

Labels: new blog url, nicer, oxymoron, shits

Withlove,

1:50 PM

SHAKE THAT SOCIAL STUDIES!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

guess guess guess!!

i am nooooooooow.
doing my SS revision.

i am making notes.

HAHAH AKU BANGGA SIAK!

n n n.

i used to like sucking the siputs out of their shells.

but NOW.

mia is cleaning ke aper. the siputs i mean.
and i realised, they are all ALIVE and trying to get out of there and all of it is going down the sides of the kitchen counter!

and im running n rrunning and everything and my mum is luffing seeing my face.

from now on, noooooo more siput lemak.

so MIA! can u pls stop cooking? the smell is soooo ooooooh~

abah is staring at me one kind.
i just switched on the song "shake that thing" by sean paul.

he's going "okkkk jgn kasi orang lain dgr. sdap ehhh?'

i luff.

ohhhhhh

SHAKE THAT THING MISS KANNA KANNA SHAKE THAT THING MISS ANABELLA SHAKE THAT THING DONNA DONNA! JODI AND REBECCA!

i think.

k lets change to inul now.

adik is soooooo going to be pissed

Labels: Adik, inul, shake that thing, siput lemak, SS

Withlove,

12:18 PM

mirror-image

Saturday, February 24, 2007

i don't see the point.

no really.

you can do it, so i can't? you can bitch about others behind their backs, but i can't?

but it's ok. i realise that you're sick, in your mind.

fcuk u. you conveniently forgot, you were the worst critic. of everyone. but hell, how can you see right? i mean, the only things you see in the mirror is your face. you can't see your heart, or the lack of one.
you don't realise at all do you?

it really IS asking for too much if we were to ask you to change. because you proved it to us TIME AND AGAIN you can't be trusted. with what you hear or DID NOT hear, with what you SAID and did not say. so whatever, your shit, you stuff your own face with it.

=)

withlove babe, not to forget, withlove.

~

so yeah LIZZIE is reading my blog, this SAAT.

i hope. gooooooood!

STUDY TIME STUDY TIME!
I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED TO STUDY!!

DID MY POA!
YAY!
SS AND HIST REVISION DONE!
YAY!
MATHS SUCKS!
YAY!!

mwah.

withlove,

Labels: changes, lack of heart, lizzie, study, ur shit

Withlove,

11:19 PM

as low as that

Friday, February 23, 2007

i won't stoop as low as to cause a fight..
i won't stoop as low as to cause trouble for my friends..

you should realise, we care about each other in our own way.
if that is ur way of showing u care abt us, thn its all backfiring on u. and u know it.
you just didn't have the guts to admit it and say sorry.
not only that, u didnt have the guts to even declare u made a mistake and amend.

you jsut didnt seem to care nor be bothered by the fact that because of wad u said, 3 people are fighting.

so fine, aku malas. nak layan this kinda crap. because i,unlike u, am busy. with my own life and problems to be bridled by URS. ur problem, settle it. just dun cause others pain.
enough IS enough.

~

just now was English common test. fcuk fcuk fcuk i think i screwed it.

there i was,falling asleep, knocking myself on the head to keep myself awake.
questions were tricky. i complained to my half-awake boyfriend about it. USELESS i tell u. he went "hmmm mmm hmmm mmm"... hmph.

haha HAD MOTHER TONGUE. i'm loving mother tongue n english. not becasue of the subj nor tchers, but bcoz of the company. HAHA.

best best best. scored higher thn rogue for malay. AKU BANGGE BABE!

ok dah itu jek. no time to waste.

BSOK BSOK BSOK BDAE PARTY KAKAK!!! HER 21ST BDAE!! FCUKING OLD SIAK TU POMPAN...

Labels: baby, company, friends, kakak's 21st, problems

Withlove,

8:45 PM

bubbling

Thursday, February 22, 2007

terserlah kesemuaan bubble bubble korang ehh

thanks ah.

kalau yer pun nak buey, tolonglah... jgn pergi ke tempat yang kiter sumer boleh tengok korang ok?

menyakitkan hati.

lepas satu, satu. lepas satu, satu.

like stop it ok stop it.
it's not like i haven't had anything better to do with my life.

during eng, harith was mad at me. kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan? sbbtu kau tk bual.
bih ilah dtg jek kau ok. baaaaabi. haha.

phy class ended late, headed to library, finished up maths txtbk qs and then banquet for dinner. home.

shiiiiiiiiiiiit. 5 pages of research for submission. 5 fcuking pages. i have only done 2. 1 pg complete and the other one was 1/4 done. shiiiiiiiiit.

THERE'S ONLY 24 HOURS IN A DAY AND SO MUCH THAT I CAN DO!

so saper2 yg buat hal, tolong gi mampos.

fcuk u grl. kau nak "sound" aku, "sound" jek arh siak. aper hak kau nak "sound" aku lagik pon? per kau besar sngt kaper? kau nak jadi minah, itu kau peh pasal. kau jgn bnyk bunyik arh ngn aku. pukimak. dah sundal tu buat hal sundal ah. aper, salah per aku ckp gituk? tros terang sak kau dah mcm gituk. puki ah. AKU NANGIS PER. saper sak last year nangis mcm sial psl classmate kau sepak? KAU KAN. eh pls eh, kau tk perna nmpk aku nangis ok? kalau aku nangis pun, aku tak akan tunjuk kau ah.
bytheway,aku masih ader harga diri ok? bukan kau sorang boleh step besar, boleh step cam minah arh siak. cb.

end.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

i love hist i love hist i love hist and noooooooooothing will bring me dowwwn!!!!!

yaaaaaaaaaay~

gawd. im so fake.

Labels: 5 pages research, bubble, history, sundal

Withlove,

8:22 PM

the best

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

i've always wanted to be the best that i can ever be.

the best so that everybody can finally, appreciate me for being who am i.

but as always, i'm the second best.

in the family, in school, in r'ships in everything.

i have always, always been the second best.

either i take half of every single thing or not at all, while i watch the other person get every single thing that i ever wanted.

either i get to feel like i'm the second best or i get to be compared.

"b knaper u not as msart as adik/ zuliana?"

"b knaper u not as smart/ not as pretty/not as creative/NOT AS NOT AS NOT AS ANYBODY??"

"b y u not trying as hard as......? as valiantly as...? as whatthefcuk as...?

and it sucks. and it hurts. to the point where i feel like brutally suffocating the person and cackling with laughter while he/she dies.

but fortunately, dreams do not come true. not all.

and so, i watched while my better half goes off. leaving me feeling like the second best all over again.

met up with Harith, Hafriz n Dan pagi2 at hard court to take the cd from Red. i walked from home psl i tot i would be late for the movie.. skalik i reach early.. so took the cd, shout "hello byebye" to friz n dan and off i waddled to CWP. met with Baby and headed to the movies.

Ghost Rider.

hahhahaha show was a-ok. thought it would be like scary and all. but overall, interesting. tk perna ader tt kind of storyline. cumer last part i like freak out abit and hid my face at B's neck. HAHA. i think he was shocked.

ate at Banquet (CHICKY!!) then walked around. bought somethings at mini toons and gift a name. uber cute. i can't wait to get my hands on the Pooh and Heart-shaped keychain. OMG OMG OMG CUTE GLER!!

then Baby had to go and meet up with his friends. so sent him off to the mrt station and i walked around cwp, ALONE. bought something to comfort myself being alone, then met rogue. she dancing while i budak baik step buat hmwk.

left at........6.45pm, bought OCK (reminder, i'm still banned frm eating it) then home. otw, nak accident sikit lagik psl this taxi driver mcm pukimak and caused a kid to fall and cry his lungs out.

"damn taxi driver, think they own the place."

fcuk ah. HAHA abah macam maner eh??

Labels: baby, Ghost Rider, hard court, taxi drivers

Withlove,

8:39 PM

inner angst

Monday, February 19, 2007

"b y u always blogging and bloghopping?"

"because i have this inner angst in me that i HAVE to vent in terms of verbal venting not physically BUT in this house, noone is given the space to breathe, what more vent anything?? that is why i have to vent it on this pathetic computer in a pathetic blog at the risk of a pathetic teacher suddenly finding my blog and then taking a pathetic phone to call up Mia. now tell me, what other options have i??"

"ok fine. you do have inner angst. but it's a waste of time. why are you wasting ur time??"

"because if i don't vent it, it will fester in me and i wont be able to concentrate on anythign else other thn the fact that i have something that is bothering me terribly. in this case, a sister who won't stop getting on my case. a case in which she is making a biiiiiiiig case out of ME spending or wasting MY time on MY computer in MY own leisure time which i do NOT have. have i answered u?"

"fine. i can take a hint."

"that my dear, wasn't a hint. that was a direct sarcasm to be applied to your face. dah go away"

so you see?

teachers MUST NOT come to my blog.

i need space and time and everything else that is being denied to me in my house.

BECAUSE, every minute of everyday, eversince i was a baby, the ONLY thing that gets drilled into my head IS THE FACT THAT IF I DON'T HAVE A GOOD O LEVEL CERT, I MIGHT AS WELL BE DEAD BECAUSE I'M USELESS AND WORTHLESS.

i love my parents.

and that is why, whenever someone say i have a deprived childhood, i will fcuking agree. the ferst tym i STEP onto a playgrnd was during my primary school days AT THE RISK of my parents finding out. and i was soooooooooooo scared i put only a foot down and thn ran off like a scared bunny and crying myself to sleeeeep bcoz i was afraid they have a mind-reading skill which will tell them i STEPPED onto a fcuking playgrnd.

i need help.

PSYCHIATRIC HELP.

nyehahah.

somebody shoooot me.

NOOOOOOO NOOOOOO CANNOT!!

must get o lvl cert must get gooood one.

if not i'm worthless and useless and my parents money would be wasted as none of it was spent only on but on books.

boo hoo hoo i love books.

gawd i need baby for this

Labels: books, deprived childhood, o lvls, parents

Withlove,

11:07 PM

Nina's pictures

I LOOK SHORT

(b i will kill u if u say i am short)

Nina's bdae cake.

Azmi and me. (we need tot ake several times for this one!!)

pole dancer to be

bdae boy n grl (ninot and aizat)

bdae grl tk sabar makan!!!!!

know how many times she has to pose bcoz this guy refused to sit still??

uncountable.

before the bouts of ecstasy Yan gave us!

DURING

DID WE HAVE FUN GUYS??

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

Labels: bdae party, ninot

Withlove,

3:10 PM

fatso

i am feeeeeeeeeeeeeling fat.
pretty much fat in this fcuk-i-feel-gigantic way!

smlm went to aun'ts. those yang tertinggal boat.
(inside joke. the rest of the family went to Batam to celebrate there. only 4 families stuck here.)

but yg ader was mine, cik su's and amz's.

FOOD. alermak steamboating and bbq.

chicken wings, 1 and a half pound of RED MEAT, fishballs, sotong balls, prawns, veggies, macaroni, snacks, chocolates and LOTS!!

know what i ate?
everything except the veggies.
and know how many times?

3 FCUKING ROUNDS.

Gaaaaaaaaaaaawd. i told amz i already ate when he ajak-ed makan. but i still went. TO SIT AND WATCH JEK.
skalik tk tahan, sebaaat ah!

i feel fat.

B, would u still love me though i gemok nak mampos sampai u can't hug me anymore psl ur arms wont be able to reach the other side???

haiyah. guess wad guess wad.

Cik Su brought home caramel-covered apples from Florida!

omg omg omg omg.

there was like... 5 apples? cut into small slices and covered totally with caramel?

i ate like 3 of them?!
3 apples. not the slices.

shit shit shit.

i'm gonna choke down Green Tea and hope my weight goes down. i SHALL FAST. so there.

*looks around*

fcuk fcuk fcuk!!

i have twisties, chocolates, sweets, candiessss, chocolate chips, wang wa!, super rings!!

I NEED TO GET OUT.

IMMEDIATELY.

Labels: fat, food, reunion dinner

Withlove,

3:00 PM

kwangkwangkwang~

Sunday, February 18, 2007

this morning, received a gelakgelakgelak msg.

from ninot.

"hey cinagal!! happy chinese new year!! blahblahblahblah"

i laughed like mad. ader ker patut dier panggil aku cinagal??

chet.

ok so im at my aunt's at bedok for a reunion BBQ.

farnie isn't it. gelakgelakgelak.

ok sorry. it's fun when you're with ninot saying the gelak thingy.

dah fine my cuzin is being sucha asshole.
he wans me to get off.

amzhar u suck.
like big time.

Labels: amzhar, cinagal, ninot

Withlove,

5:52 PM

1. In school, who are you closest with?

- LTG.

2. Among your friends you mentioned, name one person who...

~ always makes your 'group' laugh.

- NINA!! ninot tu...

~ have a dirty mind.

- it is something all of us are born with, like it or not.

~ is a quiet person. Seldom hyper.

- none. sumer hyper. the least hyper heera n yana. but put Taufik in front on yana n she'll faint. out me in front of heera and she'll go screaming "I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U!!" (true okays?!)

~ is the MOTHER always giving advice

- Rogue. but actually all of us. depends on the person asking and the situations.

3. How close are u guys?

-how close is close?

4. Is any of your friend attached with a guy in a same sch as you??

- urh. no kan? noooo. we have taste!!!

5. Do you know of any guy who secretly admire your friend in school?

- a'ah. saper tak admire my friends gilak. gilak phm gilak??
wahahhahahahaha!

6. Name 3person from your 'group' whom you think is the prettiest/coolest/most friendly. Choose any one..

Prettiest ==> in their own way, they make people go WOOOAH!

Coolest ==> aren't we all just hip annnnnnd happening?? *mcm phm*

Most friendly ==> if you're part of us, you are FORCED to be friendly. it's part of our life which we can't deny.

7. If you are a guy, who would you go on a date with among your friends mentioned?

- urh.. the unattached ones??

8. Do state below the names whom you want them to do this quiz..

- ok urh. Rogue *sumting for u to blog abt* , Lina *psl u slalu bored!!* A'An *psl i tk tau knaper also* Baby *take a break.* MiaoMiao *you doooooo need to blog*

DONE.

and we both know where those feelings are coming from.

withlove,

Labels: friends, those feelings

Withlove,

9:01 AM

random-ness

Saturday, February 17, 2007

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What time of the day are you?

http://www.blogthings.com/whattimeofdayareyouquiz

oooooooooh sexy~

In general, you think the world's a pretty great place - and you're happy to be a part of it.Sometimes you struggle with life, but who doesn't? You are quite level headed, though you have more inner angst than you'd like.

How Peaceful Are You?

http://www.blogthings.com/howpeacefulareyouquiz/

thanks eh.

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love.You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet.And while many people may claim they would choose love too...You're one of the few who would really do it.

Would You Choose Money or Love?

http://www.blogthings.com/wouldyouchooseloveormoneyquiz/

and i just hope the person i love knows that too.

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

http://www.blogthings.com/howdopeopleseeyouquiz/

i beg to differ. i do things so suddenly and impulsively that not many would be able to understand me, i know it.

While some of your behavior is quite normal...Other things you do are downright strange.You've got a little of your freak going onBut you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are you?

http://www.blogthings.com/hownormalareyouquiz/

HAHAHHAA ok aku weirdo!

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouspoiledquiz/

fasha this is for u.
keep it in mind.

DONE LAH EH?! mcm bnyk sngt jek aku buat. BUT ANYWAY, i will still continue doing it.
won't really bother posting it.

=)

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.
For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

Labels: blogthings, how-are-you-tests

Withlove,

8:59 PM

NUS musical

k fine that is NOT the title.

the title is..

a feast of fate?
or a fate to feast?

hahahahaha.

i tot adik was performing because she did several times.
she dancing okays?!

we adik beradik suker joegt loh!
tapi suma macam tak tahu sangat!

hahahaha.

skalik reach, mia ckp adik tak perform, she just made the costumes for the whole musical.

hahaha abah went
"dah lah. kalau gitu kiter tido eh b?"
i luffed.

and nooooo we didnt sleep.

reached, alone siak.
msged baby for help!

haha.

so masok. waited. watched!

the opening was laaaaaawaaaa~
hahaha so watched, the show was definitely meaningful..
and HAHA. i fell asleep.

walaupun kjap. i slept for like 5-10 mins.
then woke up with a jerk. hahahaha.
the dancers were wow!

hahahaha.

the guy who appeared ferst, mcm chinese and malay. face chinese but the way he talks like malay. know his name?

andrew putra.

hahahahahh.

style kaaaaaaaaan?

so during the show, ader scene psl taxi drivers.

the taxi driver maki the ahbeng who langgar-ed his taxi.

and the ahbeng replied,
"damn taxi drivers. think they own the road!!"

hahahahahaha i laughed. abah muker dah senyum tapi senyum case muker cramped.
then got another.

ah ma,
"you know, if the taxi driver die only nevermind!! now the passenger also die!! aiyoh suey ah the driver!!"

HAHAHA.

i quoted that to abah on the way home ah n he went,
"ye ah taxi driver life not as precious ah.."

hahaha.

overall, meaningful..
the credits nyer turn kaaaan. all the orang yg in charged must appear.

"The persons in charge of costume and designs! someone, SHARIZA SHARI..............."

mia muker nak nangis. hahahha thats the only part i sat up properly and clapped like mad.

abah was like "ader jugak kau nak letak namer bapak kau eh.." to himself.

HAHA.

nice nice nak see somemore!!

=)

Bagaimana pun hidup
Ini hanya cerita..

Cerita tentang meninggalkan dan yang ditinggalkan..

withlove

Labels: Adik, Musical, NUS, taxi drivers

Withlove,

4:02 PM

CNY

US GRLS

hurtful things from anyone and everyone, i can take.

hurtful things from my boyfriend, i can NOT take.

instant tears will well up, instant anger and hurt will swallow me whole.

and this is where PRIDE and EGO comes in.

though he can't see me, a smile will be plastered on my face.

a ligh-hearted tone will be muscled into my voice.

and a flippant attitude will be apparent.

it is only through this facade, this farce that i feel i can pretend i am strong, not just somehow who gets hurt too easily by a harsh word or two from him.

and for that, i don't mind if someone calls me egoistic.

at least it covers up my insecurities and insanity.

~

Chinese New Year Celebrations.

the principal doesn't give us the concert held yearly, BUT what she does give to us is..

CHOCOLATE MARS BARS, buns and packet drinks for our recess!

geddit? CHOCOLATE MARS BARS!!

what she doesn't give us, she makes it up somehow or another with something that is better and which can be enjoyed as a whole by the student body.

her rule is simple.

she gives us what we want, we give her what she wants.

in this case, results.

haha. back to CNY.

our bazaar space is smaller, meaning the heat close to unbearable and the noise level higher.

the sec 5 classes this year was hilarious.

one class sold two things, something which resembles a picnic table cloth and another, something unidentified.

OUH!
with an added incentive of FREE WATER from the water cooler behind them!

the other sec 5 class guys were selling things mobile.

holding up a pair of spaghetti straps delicately like it would disintegrate any minute!

i was cackling with laughter with Liy.

i attracted attention too!!!!!

nak tahu how??

give me a minute while i upload the photo.

done.
1st: my HAIR WHICH ATTRACTED THE BLARDY ATTENTION
2nd: the person who went "eh shab muker aku kiut ahahhah!"
3rd: our hairs.
4th: the KID who brings me up when i needed it.

overall, bestttt.

ouh i took a pic with Hafriz but the bckgrnd has the KID's face looking on JEALOUSLY.

hahah! kidding ahh.... mampos his matair bunuh aku!

i know i said this too many time for you to care,
but i'm sorry.
you know how i get when things get rough and i'm lost.
n i bet, you too noe how i will always aplogise regardless of who make the mistakes.

withlove

Labels: boyfriend, CNY bazaar, hair, sec 5 bois

Withlove,

3:19 PM

some people

Thursday, February 15, 2007

some people can't get hints.

and guess what?

even though it's thrown into their faces the fact that i DO NOT want my blog to be known yet, it somehow still appears there.
even though it was no longer a hint or what-nots, it still is very difficult to get it?

i don't GET YOU.

at nina's waiting for Izan to come on over.
bazaar stuff.
homeworks.
i am so going to die soon.

either that or grey hairs.

IF i get grey hairs, i shall scream and slaughter every teacher alive.

hmph.

so, my husband CANNOT AND MUST NOT be a teacher.
they will be a natural nag and if he nags at me, i will take a fork and poke his eyes out and not stop. hmph.

i think izan's here.

i heard the bell ring. oh well.

I miss baby.

zan n sha complained they can't see the font of my words. but oh well. i shall change it soon. ok maybe now.

done bye.

Labels: fonts, izan, some people, teachers

Withlove,

4:18 PM

i want to cry.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

honestly, i want to cry.

so much for V day lah eh.

1 maths o lvl paper,
1 set of TYS Maths,
1 maths peer-tutoring worksheet,
2 POA questions,
Bazaar goods (chopstick and photoframes),
noticeboard designs,
bazaar deco,
tuition homework,
physics to catch up with,
lessons everyday after school except for tuesdays ending at 4-5,
f&n consultation period every Friday until very late and uber tiring,
History readup,
SS filing and revision

tell me, do i have a life??

and ouh, F&N simply MAKES my day you know?

wtf.

our fault arh the school wants us to attend a talk and cut your lesson short?
our fault ah on Friday is celebration day?
our fault ah we used to have a fantastic teacher the previous year?

no kaaaaan no kaaaaaan?
ah buat spoil jek.

AND AND AND AND
MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT YANG THE SECOND ONE GOT DELETED PASAL I KEEP FORGETTING TO VERIFY IT.

sedih siak.
the testi Baby sent me is thereee~

and its GONNNNNEEEEE~

i want to bawl my heart out and stomp on the floor until Baby comes and whisk me away.
hmph.
so there.

BYTHEWAY.
just now was V day correct?
flowers were everywhere, chocolates were seen being thrown from one corner of the class to another. and teddy bears? simply block the person's face laaaa! hahahahaha but cute giler, makes me want to fall asleep on them at one go. waaah..

N OUH.
just now total defence also.
guys in uniforms?
are hawt.
nooo reaaaally no lie no lie!!
Aizat was being praised from the left right centre front and back seh!
because he realllly looks like a typical HAWT soldier somehow.

makes me almost wish that Baby was back in School and strutting around in his NCC uniform!
ALMOST.

=)

nak tngok, go to the GRL'S canteen toilet. hahahahahahahahhahahahah

[taggy]
Lina: hahahahahah yeah my bayang doesn't read. sedih kaaaaaaaaan? and and and, you're more well-known as Mal per... hahaha kalau lina, not many kenal! HAPPY V DAY TO YOU TOOOOO!!
hahahah while riding on the bike, go hulur ur tangan and pick all the flowers from the roadside. daaaah ader bouquet! hahahaha

Labels: baby, Friendster account, Homework, Total Defence Day, V day

Withlove,

4:26 AM

mwah!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

SOOOOOOOOO.

Today marks the 9th month i've been together with Baby.
saaaaaaayang baby!

i love you laaa...
although the day got off on a very rocky start, i felt grateful.. because it is yet another day i get to spend with Baby. and i'm looking forward to all the years we will spend time with each other lah ok??
=)

so far, life has been.. pretty much hectic.
classes after school daily, ending at 6 usually. everyday after school.. except for Tuesdays.. Tuesdays i will set aside for Baby... and the other days? mugging till i drop dead.
pooooooor poooooooor Heera cries every weekend because she gets sooo upset and stressed up.

sayang kau k Heera?
and ouh i know you're not reading. haha

tomorrow will be Valentines. my grls will be out with their respective Valentinos. haha and i? MATHS CLASS AFTER FCUKING SCHOOL YANG CONFIRM ENDS AT 4++. but it's ok, Baby is still mine.

hahaha!

i'm like soooo into him kaaaaaan?

but what a waste.
he doesn't read my blog.

doesn't matter. i love you.

withlove,

Labels: 9th motnh, baby

Withlove,

9:05 PM

Bayang!

then he looks at me. without lifting his head, he lifts his eyebrows in this oh-so-sexy manner.

gooood i can melt.

i love you b.
trust me, i do.

withlove,

Labels: baby, sexy

Withlove,

6:21 AM

Take me Away

Monday, February 12, 2007

ok fine i can't seem to copy the link. but it's ok.

check out

"Take me Away - Fefe Dobson"

nice nice nice.

I have waited all my life to know you
All about you
And now I'm staring in your eyes ocean blue
I'm all about you

And in our minds it comes so easily
But there's a feeling coming over me
I wanna show you but there's nowhere we can really be free
Everybody's watchin'

Wouldn't it be good if we could be together

Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer
Into the sun, we will run

I try to remember when I was just a child
In my room

My imagination used to run wild
But I never knew

That nothing's ever as it seems to be
When a dream collides with a reality
It should be easy when two people love each other truly
Everybody's talkin'

Wouldn't it be good if they would understand us

Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer
Into the sun, we will run

We
will run...
Whoa whoa whoa whoa

we
will run...
Oh yeah yeah yeah

Wouldn't it be good if they would understand us

Wouldn't it be good if we could be together....

Take me away!
Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer
Into the sun, we will run

Whoa whoa whoa
I will run with you wherever you go
Don't be afraid
Let's run away and I will steer
Into the sun
We will run

credits:
( http://artists.letssingit.com/take-me-away-lyrics-take-me-away-nqg5bp6 )

Labels: Fefe Dobson, lyrics, Take me Away

Withlove,

6:10 PM

ugh

Sunday, February 11, 2007

k i suck.
i messed up mal's blog.
k noooo its the same but instead of doing wad i was supposed to do, which was transfer.
i unwittingly created a new one.

because i tot it was auto.

awwwwww fcuk

Withlove,

4:09 PM

3 and 2

Saturday, February 10, 2007

wheeeee~

k i'm happy.

so nobody should dare to bring me down.

i will slaughter you like a sheep and gut u out like a fish!

=)

i love baby!!

rushed home. skalik as per normal, i msged b asking him to siap whenever i start to siap.
skalik his reply
"dah pon."

my reply??

"alermak my sayang sindir ah..."

n he blardy luff! hmph.
deny ker aper arh... nie admit seh... tk romantic langsong! (tkde kene mengene sak)

so headed to bukit panjang to check out the dancers n then headed to Yan's house with Rogue. we lepak-ed skjap thn started doing the photoframe with gusto. chey mcm phm jek.

cut cut cut, destroy destroy destroy mess mess mess clear clear clear HOME HOME HOME

=)

ouh, due to my heavy weight, whenever the bus jerked, i went flying to other ends of the bus. HAHA. BERAT KAAAAAAN??

Baby would beg to differ. he boasted that he can carry me with one hand.

then dah. haha. Orang tu dah start career as a teacher arh... but starting small by being a tutor! hahahahahahaha

it has been 3 days since. i thank God for that. Syukur Alhamdullilah
it has been 2 days after i sent the letter. received. honoured. Syukur Alhamdullilah.

i just hope it would last forever.

Amin.

Withlove,

10:06 PM

fcuk

Friday, February 09, 2007

fcuk.
everything is doing my head in.

and i wrote a letter. it was meaningful to me because.. i wasn't that kind of a person until you came into the picture.. and somehow it seems to be a habit i welcome with open arms.

the amount of work i have to do is staggering.
and to quote from Jo,

"i do do do until i don't know what i do. but still like got alot more to go!!"

the amount of responsibility on my shoulders is making me feel stressed.

dearest Baby has to put up with me. he has to stand and suffer while i go on and on, not realising the that what i have said has taken a dramatic toll on him as well.
sorry sayang..

God.. when will this all end? i hate feeling like a bitch THOUGH i know that i am. HAHA.

and Fasha, my problem is U. as always.

HAHA.

*u do the tongue thing and i'd go DAH LAME TAK DPT KAPER*

IZAN CAME BACK IZAN CAME BACK IZAN CAME BACK!!

me :"kepaler hotak kaaaaaaaaaau"
everybody else : eh rindu izan sey biler izan nak balek seh sunyi seh takder izan

and it really is. unnaturally quiet w/o her.

we miss you babe. welcome back to SINGAPORE LAH EH!
and i love you. no point larh sad sad. you still have us.

hahahahahha step cam kau gi jauh sngt jek.

bayang. i love you. don't give up. not now, not ever. keep holding on, we can do this. together. i know only time will tell but i'm not willing to let go. i'll keep my tongue in check i won't lash out anymore. i love you.

Withlove,

8:10 PM

hiatus or closure

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

it's either i'm putting up a password on my blog or i'm simply closing down my blog.

apparently, teachers don't seem to have any better thing to do.

HONESTLY.

they go to our blogs and pull us aside and and and... DEMAND an answer to things that WE KNOW is on our blogs. and i can bet, a few minutes later, messages will be flying over our heads to our parent's handphones.

i mean, work with our parents all you want larh siak but at times we need the blogs to vent our frustrations without the knowledge of our parents. i mean, understand understood lah... our parents might have a hard time understanding us due to the age gap and all but... they will interrogate us and all EXCEPT understand us. so give us a chance and a place where we can truly be ourselves.

you want the best for us but do you guys really want to be pressured because we have no place to go to? NO KAN KAN KAN?

so don't kpo. HAHA.

BABY I LOVE YOU LAH OK?? JGN ANGRY ANGRY WITH ME ANYMORE LAH I SAY SORRY ALREADY MWAH MWAH MWAH JGN MARAH AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

NANTI I PUJOK U MORE OK??

and oh, in case my form teacher is reading this, i would like to say

thanks for everything you've done. it's because of you, my parents lost their trust as well as their faith in me. ouh did i mention the fact that they feel i'm stupid? i guess not.

so there. please, keep your comments strictly about my studies and my character in school. please do not attempt to "understand" me in front of my parents because for the past year, you have not been caring. at all. you care only when i flunk your subject because it "concerns" you directly but please. do not assume. and it is my own choice to screw myself up or not. it is also my choice to have a relationship or not. because i do not go around telling people whether you should have a relationship or not, whether you are ok with the fact that you can't score. and i obviously do not go around, blatantly proclaiming,

"now is not the time for you to be in a relationship as your studies seems to be affected by it."

do not judge me by the results of the subject you are teaching me. i have yet to fail subjects that i genuinely like with teachers who do not go around ignoring or slamming books at me then turn around and be nice to someone else. because not only is it degrading, it is also hurtful and it make it seems that i am only a minority in your class who can be pushed aside just like that.

you rub salt into the wound by being concerned about me just because my parents seems to be in front of you, looking at me murderously and threatening me with every single movement that they will trash me the moment we reach home.

i for one do not need that. if you so want to have you own parents think that you are stupid, by all means, make it happen. do not pass judgement simply because we do not have a mutual agreement about why i am stupid.

thank you very much for your cooperation and understanding.

oh, have a nice day.

withlove,

[edited]

my cousin is apparently flying off to Australia on Saturday. doing a double-degree. and my parents asked me go to her blog to read the details. i felt dirty doing it macam tngah report to them about her. i didn't want to and they went "whta's the point of internet? do it else i'll cut the internet" so i did. i simply told details of time and flight and fullstop. the others can't be said out loud because i hate it if people were to say it to me. it sucks.

best of luck cousin. explore.

[edited]

Withlove,

8:49 PM

mcm pukimak.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

ok aku marah.
aku marah.
aku bingit.

AKU PENAT-PENAT TAK TIDO MALAM JUST TO BUAT BAHAS!!
AKU PENAT-PENAT PERAH OTAK!
AKU PENAT-PENAT MALUKAN DIRI DEPAN FASHA ABT MY MALAY!!

ABIH KAU SEDAAAAAAAAAP JEK AMEK POINTS AKU DAPAT MARKS UNTUK CA KAU!!
EH GI AH PIKIR!!
KALAU CKP SIANG2 TAKPER JUGAK!!

ITU PUN U DIDNT DARE TELL ME TO MY FACE!

FCUK U LAH.

~

the people i hate to the utmost is those yang dah salah tak nak mengaku.

dah buey member satu hal, biler kiter ckp KAU BUEY, kau ckp kite FITNAH kau.
skg aku gi blog kau, TEROS TERANG KAU LETAK SITU.
FERST KAU BUEY.
SECOND KAU FITNAH KITER
THIRD, u dun even have the fcuking guts to tell us the truth.
we had to find out for ourselves.

2 words

screw urself.

~

i tot being in one means everything should be mutual. if not all, thn most. but apparently NOOOOOOO its not, according to you. i had to find out stuff abt my own from another person's blog. do you realise how degrading i feel it is?! wtf. i had to find out everything from everyone EXCEPT FOR U. the whole worlds knows every minute detail about u but not ur own.

like fcuk ok.

i come clean to u about every single thing. i tell u abt everything that is happening in my life. bcoz i tot it should be shared. but i thought wrong.
thanks for showing to me.

for showing that having one doesnt necessarily mean sharing your life with that person either.

~

i give up. YOU TELL ME what you want ME to do. you tell me WHETHER i should be angry with what shit you people are giving me.you tell me IF i should still care about what i say/do towards you. YOU TELL ME IF I SHOULD EVEN CARE ABOUT YOU IN THE FERST PLACE.

apparently what i do is never enough.

so why bother right?

because you apparently seem to think that i'm not enough. or even good enough. when i tell you something that is bothering me, somehow I APOLOGISE.

gawd i'm sick of ths situation.

my fault or not, i apologise.

fcuk u ok.

fcuk all of you who make me so angry.

so angry until i'm crying.

and i tot i could call the person who can comfort me. but when i think twice, i know the phone wouldnt be answered.

fcuk you all once again.

Withlove,

8:27 PM

baaaabi

Monday, February 05, 2007

sapa ajar korang ah, minum malam nie, bsok pagi bangon solat subuh?

sapa ajar korang ah, minum sambil ucap name Allah?

sapa sak ajar.

kiwek.

irritating bastards.

gi ah minum ah korang sampai mampos.

aman dunia tanpa korang!

Withlove,

8:23 PM

OBS

sec 3s gone for camp at the OBS tempat at...
Pulau Tioman for 5 days.
omg. lamer seh.

bih IZAN NGN CHIQA NGN HABIBAH tk ckp byebye to me.
tkper tkper aku majok sorang2.

recess was sunyi without Izan siak. Sha, Rogue, Yana and only me. CHET. itu pun Yana went to duty. gaaah. so after recess we went up the normal back staircase. skali tutup. ask daniel and yani ah,

"eh apesal tutup? dah time tutup ker?" -me
"dah dah dah..." -one of them
"ouh kirekan dah bukak bih tutp balik ah?" - sha
"huh a'ah" -them

so went a whole round. WE WENT UP JEK THEY OPEN THE STAIRCASE!!

tros kener maki upsidedown siak. hahahhahahahahahah. and they dared laughed at us.

done.Maths was horrible. 3 periods. gah. walked to Sha's with yana n sha. HAHA. we did something to 2 vending machines. HAHA. can't tell nanti kener bankrupt seh the company tu. HAHA. go lib. sang away while the others were hard at work. I DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO SEH.

bih home. n here.

guys, baby was trying to be nice when he blogged saying that i didn't spoil february for him. REALLY. it is a fact that i did.

OUH OUH lagu Leaving on a Jet Plane by Chantal ape-tah SEDAP. haha. old song but still?!

NINA HEERA MS HAN MR WONG TAK DTG SKOLAH.
sedih seh. i just screamed at heera over the phone n told her sha SUCKS. k bedek.

isap isap swadikarp -Sha
kiss my baht

see? kesian orang Thailand.

I NEED HELP.

GEJALA SOSIAL BERPUNCA DARIPADA PENGARUH BARAT *PEMBANGKANG*

BAHAS. ANY IDEAS, CALL YM HANDPHONE BEFORE 7.30 AM TOMORROW. IMMEDIATELY. URGENTLY. DESPERATELY. YOU-GET-THE-POINTLY.

SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYANG LINA

withlove,

Withlove,

7:25 PM

nina's paaaaaaaaaaaaarty!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

went for mendaki w/o nina.
die die die i cannot go anywhere alone psl i KEDI. HAHA.
BABY HANTAR!!!

wheeeeee~

the ferst thing i noticed was THE WATCH on his hand =)

met zan at 2.30 HAHA. then the rest. laki2 sumer SEMPAT NAK MAIN TIMEZONE! ader ker patut.
truth revealed, AIZAT NYER BDAE 2 FEB.

took train. MEMBER TERTINGGAL. met them at tanah merah station n then go.

sampai her place 5 siak. U NOE HOW LONG TAK TU?!

thn we SHOUT "happy birthday" song. first for nina then for aizat. phototaking then da,apalagi,SEBAT AH MAKANAN!

nash n radzee came,giving me about 20 mins warning.Nizar and the uninvited guests came.
n sha made the comment,
"kat skolah tak perna bual ngn nina tk perna pandang muker nina bih skg? sumer mcm paham dtg bdae party dier"

hahah.

mmng betol.
kurang ajar jek. we were all glaring at them and the guys were seemingly OBLIVIOUS to the fact.then famie n her grls came.
due to the lack of space, we went off to the BITCH! hahahha i hv no idea y but i like saying bitch instead of beach.
madly cackling, we had fun.
and Baby drove me to jealousy when he sent me an MMS. haha. pathetic gitu loh aku. haha.
YAN power seh. drove 4 grls to excitement.

haha confession : all our words were blatantly sexual.

=)

went back in at around 8.30. haha waited around for yana. KATER KUL 8,LAST2 DTG KUL 9.45. kire ah braper lamer tu. hmph. then ok had a wild tyme. dilemma of going home came and went. went home in a car,courtesy of nina's dad. i sat at the very back. me,harith,aizat. hahahah i SLEPT. serious penat giler. sent rogue n yan first thn me thn the other guys. reached home at 12 on the dot. msged kakak pleading her to open door for me. thn dah.

HOME. MANDI, SEGAR!

waited for a call that never came and i gave up.

iris- goo goo dolls.
listen to it.
best.

and i give up forever to touch you...

Withlove,

9:26 PM

and we love..only to be hurt in return

i have been a hypocrite towards baby.
he knows and yet he still puts up with me.

haha?

no.

i was the reason why he puts in his blog he gave up on his favourite month.
in a mere 24 hours, he went from wildly optimistic to downright hostile about february.
and it's all because of me.

see b? i accept the blame.
haha. public lagipon. haha.

as everyone knows, i have this huge ego in me which refuses to back down though i'm wrong.
everyone knows that.
i'm an egoistical bitch who prolly doesn't HALF the things i ever had in life.
and yeaaaaaah i know.

haha.

b sorry for everything. anything and everything.i take back every harsh words i said, every torture i put you thru and every hurt i caused you. i know i can't change the past but i can make the future better. hopefully. with you. again, hopefully.

~

and my sister and mother MCM PHM only.
the commentator ckp "offside". and from then on, my sister and mother has been screaming the word offside every 3 minutes. MCM PHM. when i said that, they went "eh we paham ah. u never watch u jgn mcm phm". and when thai goal, they shouted goal. bih i said "tu thailand nyer goal. they terdiam. HAHA.

n ouh, it is a fact that i do NOT watch tv. if i do, it's a mere halfanhour 1 day a week. haha. the last proper show i watched was HIKMAH. n tat was irritating bcoz my whole family say "tu confirm ni confirm tu confirm ini itu" everytime a new dilemma presented itself. PADEHAL PADEHAL.
alah my family sumer mcm phm ah.
hahah.

withlove,

Withlove,

9:33 AM

BABY~

Saturday, February 03, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BAAAAAAAABY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

bayang, bayang dah tua arh!! muke jek muda... kwangkwangkwang~
i love you, jgn macam-macam ok just because u dah jejak the legal age!
ni case warning in your bdae wish tau!!
i love you
mwah!

came back from mendaki with abah. he fetched me knowing i will take "satu pagi petang siang dan malam aku kasi, masih tak siap2! dah abah amek"!!!
so yeah. sent me home, blog awhile, upload things into comp to free up the space in my handphone for MY PICTURES ONLY and mandi and all and GO!

Nina, in case you're reading this :

EH NINOT. BDAE KAU UNTUNG SIAK! DAH AH AKU MAJOK AH NGN KAU *pujok aku betol2, kasi aku chocolate bnyk2 tau*. TAPI SINCE SAYANG NYER PSL, AKU TETAP TURUN BDAE KAU AH!! mwah!

guess what, i told her i majok with her during school and she went,
"aper aku kesah. kau tak turun bdae party aku per...." *turns away*

my reply was simple.
"nanak pujok, no birthday present!!"

and she immediately shot out of her seat and say
"NAK NAK EH KENER KASI PRESENT AH!!"

haha hilarious ah she.

sayang kau. see you later~

IZAN: SAYANG KAU.

Withlove,

1:24 PM

atcha

Friday, February 02, 2007

cackled madly ontheway home with zan n sha in tow. heading to my hse which i shall change and blah. (took quite a LONG time though)

met up with katy n mas who wanted to go for their CCA but last2, followed us to CWP.
izan's neighbours are all penyamun, perogol,perompak!
=)

met baby at bns. gave him his present. haha. didn't have any idea what to get for him initially but now that's done and over with, alhamdullilah.
walked around. got nian's gift for her minutes after she met us

"aku tahu, korang jalan2 kat sini nak beli present aku kaaan???" -NINA SCREAMED.
"TAK TAHU MALU!!!!" - everybody including her mom n sis.

hahaha kiut lah. headed to lib.
did minor changes to bahas bcoz fools were taking pics with their handphone AND MINE.
mood was not there. wtf.

home afterwards. zan rushed around to fetch diknor. last2 sempat. kiut giler.

and i realised, those who are really there for me wasn't there for me physically but in mind, they have always been there for me. thick and thin.

thanks Rogue for wanting to rush all the way down for me yesterday, Yan for accompanying her, Sha for trying to make me ineterested in your pictures and bahas though i wasn't and lastly, izan. you're the babe lah grl, keep your chin up, i'll always love you. don't be bothered about the outside when inside, you're as pure as anything. i love you. TAK CUKOP KER!?

haha!

i love you b

withlove,

Withlove,

1:10 AM